Messages Three

[Yep its message time again, some is OOC and some is IC :P I won't say which is which, that ruins half the fun]

Live with us, come play with us. We'll make sure to corrupt you, and then you'll be one with us.

Why don't I say hi to you anymore? Because I hardly get a conversation out of you, unless it seems on your terms and when you want to talk to me. I love you all it takes is one word and I go running, but you neglect me leaving me on a shelf somewhere. I'm not going to sit here crying.....

Quit being emo, you're so much more fun when you smile.

Sweet baby don't you cry over the things you can't help, try to stay in a serene place the problem might solve itself. I'll always be here, here for you. I just want you happy, because your laughter brightens up the world. I love you babydoll <3

I got one thing to say to you!! Ppppppppuuuuuuuuuurrrrrrrrrrrrr!

Please don't worry or feel bad because you're not around, you got a life and things to do in it. Its not like I can't survive without you, I understand and I'm not a priority. Take care of the things that matter, and look after yourself.

I heard all about but its just one side of it, it all could have been handled in a better and more mature way. I don't care what anyone says you won't be alone, you just need to see what you had and what you got. Things went sour and I'm sorry, there is still time to heal the wounds and rifts.

We face eachother from different sides, the anger burns can't remember why. It's kind of crazy to cause such pain, our foolish pride makes us hate this way. We watch our world fall apart. Tell me what good is winning, when we loose our heart? - Brother my brother by Blessed union of souls

All those accept my new path I will embrace and call my family, I spent such a long time with you all. All I ask is that you don't cause conflict between the old and the new, if you hate me that much just know I'm no traitor.

Do you know what love is? You speak it, but you don't seem to feel it.

It takes an asshat to know an asshat :D

For your sake its time you saw you are with people who are poisoning you, you grew some balls and you lost them again. You fill me with this undieing disappointment, I can shed no more tears of distress. I'm pretty much done and I grow weary of the insults, whenever I decide to say hi to you. Seriously wake the fuck up!

MOOCH!

Lulz of the day:

[11:50] Lucky Fortune Teller whispers: The astral spirits bring a grave warning for Blueray Darkes:
[11:50] Lucky Fortune Teller whispers: The spirits say: 'Everybody is somebody else's weirdo.'

In this city - Iglu & Hartley

[Lalalalala disclaimer not mine]

You came in to my life
You cannot separate yourself
You came in to my life
You cannot separate yourself

(Chorus)
And I found that round here
In this city
That I wont disappear
In this city
I got nothing to fear
In this city,
In this city

Close those doors
Close those doors now
Now, now, just keep em open
Keep em open
Yea, keep em open
Ill keep on, keep keep on going
Taking it in so, so heavy
Take it easy son, this aint so deadly
Got keep on, gotta go on, gotta go on
Take it all with what weve done
Gotta push it push it push it
To the top of the building
Even when no one is feeling
It might bother you
Dont let it
If these people just dont get it
They cant express it
They wont accept it
She said its okay that they may never give you that credit.

(Chorus)
And I found that round here
In this city
That I wont disappear
In this city
I got nothing to fear
In this city,
In this city

Ive been down here
Down these roads
People pass through
Some stay some go
Standing here broke
Not a penny to my name
But she says she loves me all the same
I try my best
And you do to
And all you want is something you can move to
Everybodys gotta get their kicks somewhere
Everybody gotta fit in somewhere
Theres, an open road
And Im traveling down
Dont know where to go
But I lock and load
Shoot that sky till the moon explode
Moon explode
Now were laying in a field
White flowers on our backs
Talking bout home
But we cant go back
I guess thats why we left
So we could take a step
Keep moving and forget the rest.

You came in to my life
You cannot separate yourself
You came in to my life
You cannot separate yourself

(Chorus)
And I found that round here
In this city
That I wont disappear
In this city
I got nothing to fear
In this city,
In this city

Messages Two

miss you, I wish I knew if you are truely gone or not. Not knowing is driving me crazy, I haven't cried not even when I heard. All I'm doing is looking for a sign, and finding only the empty places where you've been.

No excuse I make up will ever cover the fact I betrayed you, and for that I'm truely sorry for the pain I'm causing you. I've fallen in to a dark place with no current escape, as usual I end up just hurting all the people around me. I don't mean to, I don't want to. I hate hurting anyone.

You crushed me. I hope you got what you wanted out of it, that you made me feel worthless. You reminded me I am nothing more than a fucktoy, that men are liars and cheats. For a brief moment you gave me hope that I could have something of worth, in the end you simply snuffed it right back out again. Thank you for putting me in to my low point, no really thanks.

Whenever you want a peach just ask, I will certainly roll one your way.

Sometimes things don't work out here on this thing we call Secondlife, at the end of it all what happens in real life counts a little more. Work at what you need to work at, but know that when people finally move on they still love you with all that they are.

Funny how you are called the Shadow consort, though others of your own family are rather fond of me and another. Perhaps they should be called a Shadow consort too, at least that will make it fair.

What the fuck bit you in the ass and died?

I don't know how I got here or why, I don't talk about my problems I just bottle up. Usually it comes out rather slowly, this time it decided to exlpode in bursts. Screwing up, goofing off, and anything else that I did, I've been hit hard since December but still its no excuse. Right?

You always have my back, I always give in to you.. What happened there?

I will always be a Shadow at heart, even when I'm falling apart.

For some reason I can't seem to do anything alone anymore.

Messages One

I stole this idea...... I thought it was a good idea

I want to tell you how I feel but I think that would just drive you away, I enjoy spending time with you. If only I knew how to say it and hope you would stay, I can't even say it here.

Pull your shit together I don't want to be in the middle when you two go off at eachother, I'll be the friend you need and want but I am not your scape goat.

QUIT BITING ME! The more you bite the more tempted I am, it doesn't matter if she said we could. I know she would still be hurt by our actions, and I am trying to keep my vow. Either way I like your company, I find you rather witty.

I'm not first in your heart and I realise I can't take that place, I also know that I don't want to make you unhappy. I am happy with having you around and our shared time, I will always have a place for you in my heart. <3

I can't thank you enough for spoiling me as much as you do, or the cuddles you give to me whenever I need to smile. Whenever I am sad you do your best to make me laugh. Much love to you!

So glad I married you, love you alot babes.

Do not tempt darkness to you for it will not go well for you, sometimes the light can not penterate the pitch black of a souless creature.

Knowing that you are happy with your wife makes me happy, despite the bitterness I sometimes feel when I see you two together.

Iris - Googoo Dolls

And I´d give up forever to touch you
´Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You´re the closest to heaven that I´ll ever be
And I don´t wanna go home right now

And all I can taste in this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
And sooner or later it´s over
I just don´t wanna miss you tonight

CHORUS:

And I don´t want the world to see me
´Cause I don´t think that they´d understand
When everything´s made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

And you can´t fight the tears that ain´t coming
Or the moments of truth in your lies
When everything feels like the movies
And you bleed just to know you´re alive.

Sorry

I made a mistake and now you're mad.
Sitting here I'm feeling pretty bad.
The choice was there I made it wrong.
You were the place I should belong.

I got no idea what I'm meant to do.
When people keep tearing me in two.
Tugged and twisted I made the leap.
Now you're mad and I'm losing sleep.

I'm not the type to up and bail.
I don't want to be a helpless fail.
I never meant to make you cry.
Please I'm sorry, I didn't try.

Now you're hurt I made you sad.
Kicking myself hope you don't stay mad.
My words are nothing what can I say?
I'll do what it takes no matter the pay.

Know that I love you
I stand by you
I should remember you come first...

I needed to rant

Get a job.

Get a factory job.

Sorry to say it but my asshole of a family doesn't give two shits if I happen to be medically depressed, they don't care if going in to a warehouse or a factory will send me over the edge. According to my oh so "wise" sister who gets all her money off Dad, I should stop being an attenion whore and get over myself. Or I should stop mentioning things about food and this that or the other, cos if I die no one will feel sorry for me. I don't care and they don't care, so she says stop talking then just get over yourself its your own fault if you die. The whole thing started because I don't cook and make sandwiches, so according to her I'm going to die. Yeah right I eat not that any of them give a flying fuck.

Lets see I might not have a job but according to them I'm still a lazy shit, they forget that I do the housework. Wash up the dishes, empty the bins because no one has enough brian cells to think of doing it, clean the house every friday, and I'm not the one who is too lazy to flush the damn loo.

They forget I never been unemployed as long as I have recently, six months maxium it used to be. According to them I haven't worked a day in my life and I am just a fucking bum, technically I'm not out of work completely because I still do the council work/politics. So Dad is subsiding two familes and claimed he was subsiding three people in our family, three yeah right Dad sure you are. My youngest brother and my sister are the only two who get money off you, you don't subsidide me at all you barely buy me anything cos anything I do want I get myself. About the only thing I'm taking off you is water, and electricity oh and the internet. Where is the subsiding HUH HUH?

Keep whispering about me behind my back, or insulting me to my face. Keep telling me I'm an attention whore when I ask for absolutly fucking nothing off you, keep telling me all the shit that you want me to hear. And I hate you, I hate you so fucking much. None of you know me you don't even understand me, I'm just there 99% as some non existant thing and that last 1% I'm just a shit a worthless shit.

I hate you!