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miss you, I wish I knew if you are truely gone or not. Not knowing is driving me crazy, I haven't cried not even when I heard. All I'm doing is looking for a sign, and finding only the empty places where you've been.

No excuse I make up will ever cover the fact I betrayed you, and for that I'm truely sorry for the pain I'm causing you. I've fallen in to a dark place with no current escape, as usual I end up just hurting all the people around me. I don't mean to, I don't want to. I hate hurting anyone.

You crushed me. I hope you got what you wanted out of it, that you made me feel worthless. You reminded me I am nothing more than a fucktoy, that men are liars and cheats. For a brief moment you gave me hope that I could have something of worth, in the end you simply snuffed it right back out again. Thank you for putting me in to my low point, no really thanks.

Whenever you want a peach just ask, I will certainly roll one your way.

Sometimes things don't work out here on this thing we call Secondlife, at the end of it all what happens in real life counts a little more. Work at what you need to work at, but know that when people finally move on they still love you with all that they are.

Funny how you are called the Shadow consort, though others of your own family are rather fond of me and another. Perhaps they should be called a Shadow consort too, at least that will make it fair.

What the fuck bit you in the ass and died?

I don't know how I got here or why, I don't talk about my problems I just bottle up. Usually it comes out rather slowly, this time it decided to exlpode in bursts. Screwing up, goofing off, and anything else that I did, I've been hit hard since December but still its no excuse. Right?

You always have my back, I always give in to you.. What happened there?

I will always be a Shadow at heart, even when I'm falling apart.

For some reason I can't seem to do anything alone anymore.